Brutal Interrogation (Part Five)

I was surprised by some of the answers since I don't think I'm even close to some of them. On the other hand no one guessed correctly so maybe if you all get together you can cross off what it's not. Maybe I'm just a mystery but that's what these FAQs are for. Anyway here's the last question of the month. The clock will remain for the next deadline when I open up for questions again. This question was a combination of the questions so I tried to answer everything at once.

You have approximately one month to live, who do you tell, what would you do, and would you be afraid of death?

If I had one month to live and I knew this for a fact I don’t think I would tell anyone. People are sure to figure it out eventually since I’m not sure I can keep myself together if I knew but I would try to make sure they didn’t find out so people would stop feeling awkward. It’s amazing what people do when they know someone is dying that I ask myself, why don’t we do that all the time? No one knows for sure when they are going to die so how can we be sure if we’ll ever see the person we just said goodbye to? As for what I would do, I already live my life with the consciousness that it might be my last so I don’t think that would change too much. I am more curious than afraid of what death holds so if I knew the exact day I was going to die I would be more disappointed that it wasn’t a mystery. I guess that also depends on what I’m going to die of too. If it’s something boring I might just be inclined to try and go out with a bang.

Boom!

- BlackFireMyth -

Listening to:

The Day I Die - Good Charlotte

Brutal Interrogation (Part Four)

In the spirit of relativity I have to answer a quick question before the main one that I've been getting. The songs that I listen to always have to go with the posts because I listen to them while writing. If I'm writing about promises I should listen to a song about a promise to get in the mood. For today, I'm listening to music about music (kinda).

Is there a song/book/movie that you feel accurately describes your life and why?

This is a tough question with just one media type so I’m going to give a couple of examples. In song I have had a song stuck in my head for over ten years. It always comes back when I’m thinking about my life even though it doesn’t necessarily reflect my life it does reflect part of my views. So if you get a chance to listen to “Clove Smoke Catharsis” you can get a little insight to what I think on occasions. There’s no one song that can describe my entire life but it gets close. A book about my life would have to be written by or about me in order to be accurate. I don’t think I can fully relate to most books considering my situation is strangely unique. So once again you need a whole array of books in pretty much every genre to make up my life. I do have a movie character that I almost feel has me down but I’m not exactly sure if that’s a good thing. I was watching a horror series that I’d never watched before and it had this character in it but I’ll leave the guessing to you.

1st correct email wins a prize,

- BlackFireMyth -

Listening to:

Reiver's Music - AFI

Brutal Interrogation (Part Three)

I don't know whether or not to be insulted by this question. I'm optimistically going for no.

Can we truly expect you to keep your promises?

In the simplest terms I will always keep a promise. I know I have the doubters who say I can’t be trusted and that I’ll just say something and go back on my word later but I think that just comes with being me. I don’t think I have ever promised that many people things so how come people feel like I won’t keep a promise? I’m sure most of the people who doubt have never really met me either. How does someone judge someone else without having been introduced? People are mad because I don’t make a promise to them. They shouldn’t be because my philosophy is to avoid making promises. Also I never make a promise that I can’t or don’t think I can keep. This is what gives me the freedom to say I will keep my promise. So unless you specifically hear me say the words consider my words to be tentative and not a promise. Have I ever broken a promise? No doubt when I was little I would promise someone something that I would later go back on but as far as I remember I have always done my best to keep my promises.

Or maybe I should be...

- BlackFireMyth -

Listening to:

I'm Not Okay (I promise) - My Chemical Romance

Brutal Interrogation (Part Two)

So I took the rest of the questions and put them into a hat (actually it was a cookie jar but whatever) and this is my question of the day. I can't say I fully understand the meaning so I just had to make my own.

What is your nightmare scenario?

I’m not sure in what sense you mean for a nightmare scenario. Do you mean for me, the world, a group of people, or about a certain situation? That being said I’m going to assume you mean the worst possible situation that I can imagine. I’m not sure whether or not I should say something like this out loud (or in blogging as the case may be) because I always have bad luck and give credence to my ideas. So knock on wood but I always imagined that one day someone would risk the entire world’s existence by trying to save the world. I have never been sure why but I have always been more afraid of people trying to do things for good reasons than for evil. I almost think that they have a better chance of success but will at some point do something that will turn things for the worst. I’m not saying that it will happen but I know enough to not rule it out. Call me crazy but if change is going to occur, I’d rather it be from the bad guys over people who will do insane things to try and protect the world.

It also depends on the definition of nightmare I guess,

- BlackFireMyth -

Listening to:
Highway to Hell - AC/DC

Brutal Interrogation (Part One)

Well the title is one of my favorite subject lines that I received (along with about a hundred questions) I think that the five questions I'm answering are all on that list. I spent the last five hours (I actually started yesterday but I still had to get through the last minute emails) going through an insane amount of emails and I started writing questions I saw more than once and put little checks next to them. The most accurate way to check the top five? Not really but I'm sure I was right.

Anyway this is going to be day one and the questions are not actually in order of how often they were asked (mostly because I didn't want to go through and count the number of checks next to them on my paper). So besides that let's get going with the first question which I never really expected to see so much.

Why is your definition of true happiness different than everyone else’s?

I’m not sure what everyone’s definition is since everyone has their own version. I personally measure my happiness based on other people’s happiness. Of course that doesn’t mean I’ll be happy because a random lady shopping in the same store is happy but I do like to see my friends be happy which in turn makes me feel better. True happiness is not something I feel like I can achieve in my own life at this moment. I’m not sure anyone can but I do have my moments that I feel like some form of happiness. I guess my definition is different in that I see the downside to everything so true happiness can’t possibly be achieved when I’m seeing the downside. You can have all the money, power, and love in the world (or even a “balanced” amount of each) and I can guarantee that there will be an emptiness that takes away from truly being completely happy (mostly because people always want more than what they have, even when they have it all). So do I think people can be happy? Yes, I know its possible but true happiness is still too far away from our insatiable natures.

What do you think of true happiness?
- BlackFireMyth -

Listening to:
Putting Holes in Happiness - Marilyn Manson

I Have A New Plan...

So I've been gone for a while but not as long as you'd expect. My lack of things to say has seen me shy away from most people lately and now I'm just comfortable being on my own. That being said I'm here. I have thought about my next posts and I am in fact opening up another FAQ for this month. So, people who've been curious, I'm leaving an opportunity to ask questions for this entire week. This time though, I'm going into the more detailed questions with lengthy answers.

So here's the rules for my new system of FAQs:
1. From the day I open the question time you have three days to send me any questions you have.
2. Emails should have an appropriate subject line so that I know you're asking me a question, I'm not into specifics though so feel free to come up with creative titles.
3. Try to send me all your questions in one email so that my inbox doesn't get crowded beyond what it already is.
4. After the deadline, I'm going to go through and find the most frequently asked questions (kind of the point of an FAQ) and answer the top five questions. Note that I may take a couple relevant questions and combine them. This will probably take a day to do so don't hold your breath that I'll answer the second after the deadline.
5. I will answer a question a day for the next five days and be as specific as I can be.

This is a new system but I think that it will work out better than our last go around and give the newcomers a chance to ask questions too. Also it's more interesting than a simple one sentence answer so take your time.

I'm placing a countdown timer on the blog so you know how long you have to submit a question so as soon as this post is done you have three days.

Have fun asking,
- BlackFireMyth -