Yes, I have finally crawled out of the hole I've been in for the last three months and I came back to posting. The only thing I can say at this point about my absence is that I have gone through hell and back just so I can tell the tale. I'm sure everyone in the world who knows me by now has heard of at least one thing that has happened to me but I think I'm going to have to summarize it anyway. I am going to write the longest post (more like a rant really) that I have ever done in this blog. So I guess you should get some popcorn or something because I'm going to start on the day after my last post and I'm going to try to explain each thing clearly although I'm also not going to give every single detail. Short, sweet, and to the point. So shall we begin?
Once upon a time...
Okay, so the week after my anniversary, I had a concert in Brazil and I was really excited because this was going to be the biggest concert that we've ever had. I didn't know this until later but a lot of people I knew were there. Anyway, the concert was spectacular, we enjoyed our fan's support and we even had the courage to sing some songs that we normally wouldn't do. After the show I was so happy that I thought that nothing would ruin my mood. Well as it turns out Giovanni was also there and he was going to tell me even better news (or so he said). He told me that he was moving the date for succession to my birthday. I paused for a second, trying to understand what he had just said to me, and then I guess I let all of the anger I had thought I was rid of on him. I attacked him and then I was sent to prison. This was my Saturday.
I swear it really was not my fault for doing it but I spent at least two days before Lorenzo came and tried to visit me. At first I wouldn't see him but after a while boredom got the best of me and I caved. He ended up being a lot nicer to me than every else at this point so I accepted his offer to get me out on Wednesday so that I could go to my registration at school. On Wednesday I could honestly say that I was shocked when I saw so many people at school. I guess it had to do with the fact that up to that point I had been stuck in a dark hole. Regardless, after that I had to go back but Lorenzo had been nice enough to sneak in my phone (which ended up getting taken away later) so that I would at least have something better to do. This is what I did until I was released on Thursday.
I spent a long time trying to figure out what the heck I was supposed to do after Giovanni had given me the news, I ended up driving myself insane but now a days that's the least of my worries. After a week of pointless searching and hoping that life would be better I had to start school. That became a twist on its own.
As it turns out I am a complete idiot... I blame the person who was in charge of what happened but they all like to have their own stories. I got stuck in the most random classes that are way beneath me but I could not do anything about it. School in itself has been okay but its been harder than most years. Maybe I'm just slipping in concentration with everything that has been happening or maybe I just hate the idea of how involved I have become with it. I had been warned many times of the effects of doing something but I never paid any attention to it because I thought myself to be invincible to normal emotions. Even if it could have been true, it definitely is not the case now because I seem to have fallen into the pit of it. I know caring for people is not a sin but it sure as hell feels like it.
My whole psychological profile has been screwed up as well. I never thought that I would ever sink to the lows others have and possibly because of my own stubbornness I was reassured that it wouldn't happen. I don't think my emotions should matter however, especially since there are definitely more important concerns to be focused on. I just want to be able to get back into my what-used-to-be normal routine. I usually had more time to do everything that I wanted (including posting in the blog) but now I seem to be so busy with all of this crap that I can't even enjoy one day in peace...
...but back to more important issues. The new kid on the block, Lucian Albesscu, has been trying to kill me ever since he "discovered" that I had killed his brother. I really didn't do it but he thinks I did so he has been trying to kill me to get his revenge. Although he is very talented, he does not really pay attention because he is blinded by rage and that really is the only reason I'm alive right now. As for his anger, I get it, but he did not pay attention to my own will or else this story would have been written differently. As of now, while I do consider him to be a threat, I'm not that really focused on stopping him. I guess Shannon made me waste so much time that I no longer find it necessary to stop him. Maybe after all of the current problems calm down I will but not now.
So what am I facing now? Right now, as in as I'm typing this we're getting ready to start the tournament at midnight as usual. Besides the rumors that I wasn't going to compete I am here to give another shot at it. Honestly its because people have asked me to do so or else I never would have really thought of doing it anymore. At least I have proved that I am not a complete disaster for the UACA as we continue into our next year of exponential growth. As far as to who is running the guy's tournament, there's a lot of guys available now that Jareth can't do it but I have my faith on Keith who I managed to convince last month to help me at least for a year. Knowing him he'll want to do it again afterward. I can think of no better person for the job right now than the one who teaches me. I hope to have many updates in the coming hours as the tournament progresses although probably not as much as last year because my so-called helpers were very bad at updating last year. I don't know but I will get back to you with that.
In the long run I have the Council to think about. With the UACA and the Council to run as well as having school work and personal matters I think I'm going to be really busy. It's all part of the plan though as I strive to do well in everything. As for right now I'm getting used to the Council system in his point of view and I'm filling out a lot of paperwork. Just from what I have seen so far I really understand why he doesn't want to do this anymore. I hope to do well and if this affects you I hope to serve you well because otherwise this entire rant of mine over taking the job is completely useless. To me this is a giant free fall into the unknown but I hope to make the most of it.
Up to this moment I have done nothing more than stay alive and prepare for this tournament. I didn't know what I was going to do until I spoke with the appropriate people and decided to go for it. I guess I also have to thank my friends because they have kept me sane throughout most of this ordeal (you know who you are) and the rest of you guys who I also consider great friends to me. I don't know what the future will bring but as far as I can tell things are not looking that bad.
So I guess that this is the end of my little story. I had planned to be a little more elaborate but time is short and i have to go do some last minute stuff before we gather and I will get to wish Keith luck before the official start. I absolutely promise to be in touch later today and in the next couple days of this insanity.
Hope you're all well,
- BlackFireMyth -
